Pendulum Reaction

She's been riding a pendulum for some time now. It will not ease up, not slow down for anything. One moment she is flying high, and the next she has hit rock bottom. There is no warning. The only consistency in her life is that her disposition will change to the opposite of the one she is in now. She wonders if there is something wrong with her? Why can't she find a happy medium in her life? She fights to live in the middle ground, but in fighting she is only the pushing the pendulum into a higher speed than it was not long ago. She urges to slow down and somehow catches up speed in the process.

Her emotions deceive her. Maybe this is what life is really like and nobody told her otherwise? Either way, something has to change - life can't be lived like this, can it? Not healthy.

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When she finally does find a remedy and gets the nourishment her body has always needed and had been lacking, she feels still as though something isn't right. It is right, but she's not used to it. She misses her mood swings in an odd way, as repulsive as they are. Guesses this is what it is like when Satan entices you. Tempts you. She can understand how appealing things can be twisted to fuel a person's desire and bring them to ruin. But how can something so terrible in her life have been twisted to feel so good and so terrible all at once? She can't understand. But she must get used to the middle. The middle is where she's supposed to be. Somewhere around there anyways... That is the place she can really thrive and be who she was made to be. And she must!